Friday, September 14, 2007 10:31 pm
ouch! it was painful at first, so painful that i was actually stunned and don't know how to react. but i assured myself it is too early to draw any conclusion given the circumstances. i continued holding on to it.
a week later, things got worse. there were strong evidence which suggested an undesirable outcome. one that has a high chance of occurrence. one that will make all my effort seem useless. one that threaten to shatter my dream. i was devastated but i did not show it. i was on the verge of betraying my heart when i suddenly snapped out of it. it's now or never. it kept playing in my head. go for it. just do it. GO!
and i did. i took all my courage with me and just went for it, for better or worse. i couldn't care less anymore. there! i've done it! i was all prepared to expect the worst. i KNEW what the result was going to be like. and i wasn't saddened by the truth. honestly. i was just a little stumped by the reply and the reason given but other than that, i felt alright. relieved actually, now that i finally got it off my chest. nonetheless, i must admit i did an analysis and discussion on the reason given, just to eliminate any confusion that might arise from it. i finally understood the meaning of the justification given and appreaciate the honesty i received. ah, such goodness but none for me to savour.
however, that might not be the end of it. maybe the news has not sank in yet. maybe i have yet to experience the aftermath of this revelation. maybe now is not the right time yet. maybe...
186^arch♥byz
