Sunday, July 28, 2013 4:54 PM
i hate you. but i hate myself more.
i hate myself for giving in to you.
i hate myself for not having the courage to walk away.
i hate myself for letting myself fall for you without holding back one bit.
Monday, December 03, 2012 3:49 PM
I'm a mess
Friday, August 31, 2012 1:02 AM
Well I don't think you read my blog. I mean I've never mentioned anything on this to you before. And I don't think you'll actually google "archobyz" out of curiosity after that Skype session. You probably don't even remember that chat. Anyways, I know I did say that I just want to have fun and I'm not looking for anything serious at the moment. But time has passed and right now, I don't really feel that way anymore. While I'm still not sure if I actually wanted a full-blown "real" relationship with all the titles and whatnots at the moment, I don't think I can handle being in a somewhat 3-way mega complicated situation. I just don't have what it takes to be in that position. And I shouldn't compromise my happiness and well-being by taking part in something that may eventually leave me in pieces. Your actions for the past few weeks sort of showed that it's unlikely we feel the same way now so I guess I have no choice but to wait till we have a chance to talk things through properly. So for now, I shall continue to not make contact. If you care enough, you'll make the first move (again).
Tuesday, August 28, 2012 5:28 PM
i'm not a player. i didn't do anything wrong to you. just don't leave me hanging like this. you were the one who wanted this in the first place and now you've disappeared without a word.
i don't deserve to be treated this way.
Saturday, August 11, 2012 11:17 PM
You told me you give a shit
And because of that, I decided to give a shit too even though it was against my conscience
But your actions are not reflective of your words
And that hurts especially when I am in no position to question you
So now I will withdraw from this until I know exactly where I stand in your life
Sunday, August 05, 2012 12:19 AM
I am now you, and he is me.
I am becoming (or already am) her, and she will, sooner or later be me.
Tuesday, May 22, 2012 11:13 PM
"I'm something you'll regret losing, I can promise you that much".
Good luck with that slutcat. You both are meant for each other.
And thank you for showing me that I deserve someone way better than you.
Sunday, April 22, 2012 12:42 AM
you didn't walk away from the 2011 me.
you walked away from the 2008-2010 me.
and that was why it hurt so bad.
because i was in love with you with again like how i did from 2008-2010.
this pain is so much more than what you've ever felt for all those time i neglected you.
because i didn't walk away to someone else.
Friday, March 30, 2012 7:01 PM
i gave my heart to you and you crushed it with all your might. the things you did to hurt me... i trusted a monster.
as much as i hate you for the things you did, i hate myself even more for all the excuses i told myself, defending your actions.
it doesn't matter to you how much i'm hurting inside because once you've closed the door, i am nothing but a piece of trash you've discarded.
you said you still care for me.
the truth is, you only care for yourself.
Sunday, March 18, 2012 4:10 PM
an answer to my previous post... seems like she
was on your mind all along.. ain't it right "little panda"?
this is the reason you were embarrassed to put an end to us face to face, isn't it?
do not underestimate me.